My Story

So most of you know me but i don't think you really know me. My mind isn't like most people's. I try to think not just outside the box but around it, through it, inside and out. I've made some stupid decisions and mistakes in my life. It started when i was young. My brother was always good at sports and the stuff that people notice you for. I mean he wasn't good he was great. He won many awards and people knew it. I was just the one that kind of played but wasn't so good. For this reason i let the devil convince me that my dad didn't like me as much as my brother. i was completely jealous. I kind of forgot about how good my life was on the outside. And that could have made me good on the inside but i didn't let it. By the age of 11 i was already teaching classes at church with kids my age. By eighth grade i had taken over the 1st through 6th grade class from one of the greatest people in my life. But I'm not saying this to put myself on a pedestal. I'm saying this to show you the devil can really overcome you with lies when you're trying to do right. Anyways, i let the jealousy get to my head and it caused me to fight with my dad ALL the time i mean fight. He wouldn't really fight back because he obviously loved me. One day he got so fed up with being pushed around and hit and spit on that he had to have me taken off. I got arrested and i was bitter. The devil used this to amplify the lies instead of me taking it as a learning experience. I ended up playing with smoking and drinking and it just never did the trick. I realized that even if i was trying to keep my eyes focused on God i had to have my heart focused there too. Without your heart focused on God there is no way to get out of sin. I went to forward and pastor Jentezen said you don't have to taste the woods to know they are bitter. I don't know why i dipped my feet in when all i had to do was look and see what God was doing with my life. Sin is like a spider web, the harder you try to fight yourself out of it, the more you seem to get tangled. So to get out of sin give everything to God and and set your head and HEART on Him and he can bring you out of the woods. So i've decided to do this. Give everything to God.

WOW.

so yet again, the Forward conference was amazing. I went in and i was scared that i would be like oh yeah i know this is awesome and kind of be comfortable all the way through. But i kept hearing people say, you'll get out what you put in. so i got to the point where i started putting everything i had into it so i could get everything i could out of it. If you haven't had a chance to go to forward next year is the time. Jentezen Franklin talked about staying out of the woods. Out of sin. He said you don't have to taste it to know its not good to go there. So i started realizing that people sin but you don't have to on a regular basis. Reggie Dabbs talked about getting back up if you fall. Christine Caine said to be ready for the baton of faith to be passed on to our generation and if you drop it don't be afraid to pick it up and finish the race. Judah Smith talked about don't let the now or the past effect your future and just because God doesn't come through on his promises in your life that doesn't mean he won't in the next generation. So strive to do your best. Lastly, Carl Lentz said that you can't poison your life with being comfortable. We have to stay uncomfortable in order to get the job God has called us to do, done. And never think its over. Its never ever over.